Comic Con 2014. It was spectacular. I’ve had some time to think about it and I have some general thoughts & reactions to all the information provided by the show’s writers, producers, actors as well as statements made by the Lauriver/Olicity fandoms. So here goes…
Now that we know Oliver is in love with Felicity, doesn’t it make that rewatching their S2 scenes all the more richer, intense and satisfying? All the times we were questioning Oliver, what is he trying to say? is he talking about Felicity? does he have feelings for her? does he love her? does he mean it?
We always knew. We always knew S2 was Oliver falling in love with Felicity. We always knew he meant the I love you. But to hear Guggenheim speak, it means we were right. It’s extremely satisfying having it acknowledged - finally. There has been a sizemic shift in the Arrow world. They picked a lane and the lane is Felicity. What was wonderful about Comic Con is that the producers, writers and our Captain finally just admitted it out loud.
I did peruse the Lauriver tag. They are very angry and upset. Completely understandable. I have intense sympathy for them. I also found this incredibly frightening place called Nolicity. I ran. I ran in deep, deep fear back to the safety and security of the Olicity tag. Where there are rainbows, unicorns and happy people.
There were a couple of things mentioned however that confuse me…
and all that
You just KILLED ME! I was looking at each GIF and being like he loves her, he loves her, HE FRICKIN LOVES HER!
…aka, Oliver Jonas Queen has been in love with Felicity Megan Smoak at least for a year. I repeat, for an entire year. PASS IT ON.
"When you’re in love with someone, it’s very hard for the person you love to tell you something that’s going to make you fall out of love with them instantaneously…”
I really just love this interview and everything about the SDCC that I haven’t even had a moment to really put all my thoughts together. However the comment above was such a testament to something I have always believed so I had to pause.
Felicity’s feelings for Oliver are constantly discussed, it’s always at the forefront but something I feel is mistakenly overlooked is Oliver’s feelings for Felicity. Oliver’s worst fears and deep insecurities.
From the moment Oliver met Felicity she saw his as just that. Oliver Queen. Not “Ollie”. Not the man who was responsible for the death of Sara Lance. Not the college drop out who couldn’t get his act together.
She saw Oliver Queen.
Through a series of casual interactions where Oliver wasn’t being truthful and Felicity knew it. And made him fully aware (insert the infamous head tilt) she still helped him. Again and again. One of their most powerful scenes in S1, “I trust you” shows early on, she saw something in him. She saw a man worthy of her trust despite his BS stories. Again when he showed in her car bleeding just as much as he put his trust in her, she did the same thing.
Fast forward or this will turn into a 3,000 word essay. Felicity is always there bringing him joy, inspiring and challenging him. Does she think he absolutely beautiful? YES! But most importantly inside and out. She looks at him and the weight of that must be so heavy in Oliver’s chest. He never wants her to stop looking at him like that.
So inadvertently hurting her by sleeping with Isabel (interesting how it happened as he’s protesting that anything is going on between him and Felicity) is nothing compared to not having her bright shining eyes look at him with all that love, compassion, fascination and admiration.
Is Oliver scared of Felicity getting hurt because of him? Of course. But he’s equally scared of her rejecting him. It would be easier for him to never have had her than lose her. Because once they do go there, he’ll be hers and she’ll be his - completely. Felicity has captivated and affected him in a way sometimes I don’t think he can understand. They are so deep and intertwined at this point there is no other way but complete surrender.
Oliver’s relationship with Sara to me, was in part because of the fact that he perceived her to be like him, if not worse, in the unspeakable acts department. Sara’s League of Assasians past helped, because of the darkness in her he never had to worry about her turning away because of the darkness in him. You see that in the way he looks at her when she did her Canary cry. He could focus on her darkness (again the “save her soul” mentality like with Helena). This is all ultimately a way of him trying to prove to himself that no soul is beyond saving because he fears he is beyond redemption. So in his mind if he could fix Helena, if he could fix Sara, then there was hope for him. As we all know, and as Diggle put it so eloquently that’s not love.
There was a time when it was just enough to be near Felicity, to have her make him smile, to work together on a Team Arrow case, to have a moment where he entertained the thought in his head. We see that through parts of S1 and early episodes of S2. But slowly but surely we get to the point in 2x10 where that’s no longer the case. It is so painfully evident to him, that it will never be “just enough”. He needs her. We see that the moment she walks into his office at QC returning from Central City. It’s proven further by Oliver’s outburst and the apology afterwards (i need you…you’re my partner).
Barry Allen was the optimity of a good guy. Oliver was desperate to find a fault in him because just as quickly as Felicity Smoak and her ponytail bopped it’s way into his life. He realizes she can just as quickly leave it. Similarly to the way Felicity is unaware of Oliver’s feelings. Oliver himself has struggled to discern what Felicity feels for him because no-one has ever seen him the way she does. He has nothing to compare it to and he struggles to understand why this intelligent, beautiful, caring woman having seen his scars both physical and mentally would be interested in him.
So Oliver has been holding his breath for a long time, refusing to allow himself to breathe, to live, because of the fear drowning all over again.
The most scariest thing for Oliver Queen is to allow Felicity Smoak to see him - all of him.